So I did what I never thought I’d do today, I took the plunge and got a student loan. Guess I was doin pretty good if it took me to my last full semester do get one though. I’ll just look at it that way!
Cause I’ve always told my self… I will never get a loan. Guess I was dwelling about it too much thinking of it as a curse I’m putting on myself. But… I’m pretty sure my hair was falling out thinking how the heck am I gonna pay for school.
Instead of worrying about two things I summed it up into one and now I just have one. It feels like a weight has been lifted off me cause this semester is gonna be a costly one and a big one at that. I’ve asked for enough money to cover my living expensive and some other expenses I’ll be needing for school. Relieving myself from all these will let me focus on school. “So is that a PLUS?”
I’ve recently made kind of a big decision especially for myself, something I was kinda looking forward to but its best for me as in a relationship standpoint. If I were to want to work on a hotshot crew or attempt to work on one, I would have to be applying for one now.
Alright filling you in a little about one. They work out of state, of course but they work three to four months out of the year and are gone the whole entire time. SEE how this would put a dent in a relationship again especially if I were wanting to settle down.
So making my decision to settle down I’m taking the responsibility of staying in one spot. Standing still with no regrets. This summer I will be on a small crew that our school puts together to travel and fight wildland fires. Its small but I think it will feed my need for adventure in wild fires, they can be gone for two to three weeks at times. That’s manageable! Right? I think so!
School’s about to start up again! Yay! Can’t wait to get it started and work toward getting onto a department. I could tell you I wasn’t nervous but that wouldn’t be me not to be. Having already been introduced to the program somehow I am still nervous. Think it’s just the new class jitters. There will be a lot of hands on classes (meaning lifting). I have made a promise to my self to stop saying “I think” and say” I can”. Those two word will be helping me out a lot this semester.